SHOO cliche-ity

Sick.

2011-07-01T23:37:00.005+08:00

Sick of not being able to afford anything.
Sick of looking at my bank account's balance.
Sick of being poor, seeing how everyone else just talks about going overseas like taking a bus trip downtown.
Sick of computers and handphone. Sick of technology.
Sick of being a dog, research this research that. Find this for me, check that out. All so dependent on me.
Sick of the world revolving round everyone else.
Sick of never hitting my $1000 mark. (WHY IS IT JUST SO HARD TO SAVE?! I don't get it.)
Sick of my swollen eyelid.
Sick of all these shit.
Sick of EVERYTHING.

Just give me a break. I'm so tired. No one understands. Once I complain a little, people start getting upset with me. Can't I vent my anger out sometimes? Sick of doing shit. Especially sick of $. Hate everything.

2011-05-14T15:51:00.002+08:00

Stupid piece of shit. Nothing is going well for me. My stupid xx just screamed right at me AGAIN. Hoho, no surprise. Treats me like a dog. I am not your dog. Called and smsed you specifically to ask if we are gona meet. And... silence or other random non-related smses keep pouring in. Simple question. Answer yes or no. Keep restricting me. 10 mins to here or there. Hey, work your mind a little ok? If you had replied my first sms then, I would have reached in 10 mins. Since you said you felt like going home, and did not reply my message as to whether we should meet, I figured going home was my best bet. No sunglasses in my bag, not prepared to go breaking all that silence, no siree, I wasn't going back. I'm your girlfriend, goodness sake. Being late a little doesn't warrant all that shit from you. I highly doubt you respected me at all. Nothing lasts forever. Except that when you are treated like shit, it remains that way. Stupid world. To think I even dressed up so well. FUCK. Never expect too much, 'cause in the end, your high expectations plummet to the deepest topographic location there ever is.

Signing off,
fucked up girl.

2011-02-27T12:08:00.002+08:00

When generosity becomes a surprise, it is to be contemplated.

A New Lease of Life

2011-02-27T11:13:00.003+08:00

A new chapter in JJ's life. A new album released, so well, I used the most of my $$ (ka-ching!) to get him. LOL the best part was, it came with a cup that changes color under heat woohoo! There is this black oval which gradually reveals his face when you make yourself a nice little mug of hot drink.

I just been given new commandments to adhere to. He gives freedom of choice, no one else does. This is just a stepping stone in my life. This is my new life. I shall pass everything else behind and advance forward. After my 4 years, who knows things might look up for me. I'll fit into a nice working place and go overseas with the one I love. Date a few more years or months who knows? And then have a romantic beach-side wedding with him. Settle down in a simple flat and have an interesting remaining life with him and maybe a little girl to accompany us down the road.

So, regarding my fitness.. let us bring it up to another level. Since my weekends are essentially free, I will use it up fruitfully. I will take up my old passion of playing the sport of badminton (hope my friends are free). Badminton trains every muscle of my body, so I guess I can still put a little interest back into my mundane life. Once I get a "WEE-U-WIT" figure, I would turn every boys' head, HAHA. Then I can achieve my teeny-weeny desire of flaunting my body in the glow of sunshine clad in only a piece of bikini. So almost every night since this week I guess, I have been doing sit ups, when I have the time, I will go downstairs and do some "stomach-ups". By the way, stomach-ups by my definition means grabbing onto a horizontal pole then bringing your kneecaps to your stomach. No matter how idiotic or crazy your life right now is heading towards, think of it as an investment. Everything is a stepping stone even if it threatens to end your life, tolerate so someday, you will be liberated of all your sufferings. Until then..

-Peace out, girl.

2010-10-14T23:10:00.003+08:00

WAHAHAHAHA, I thought that I had finished my Biophysics: Spectroscopy I tutorial on tues so I need not worry about rushing to pass it up tomorrow. As fate has it, I have to do Spectroscopy II based on the freaking confusing lecture the shiny-headed lecturer was giving this morning.

:c

Eyes so swollen, I think I'll just go for tutorial without doing anything. Lazy, hehe. Doushite? Think I'll just study tonight. Hmm Organic Chemistry it shall be! Then maybe I'll study Biology on Wednesday or Thursday. So tortured by hunger and fatigue.

When will that new movie come out. Guess I'll go watch it. Seems like a comedy, something I need to take my mind off studying or rather to reward myself for not spending $$ on myself for so long hehehe.

Feel like going for some fortune telling or something. So curious! Am I supposed to continue studying for a degree or start a business on my own? How's my career, would I be a successful sweeper in a fast food restaurant, a pathetic sales personnel pushing for sales to hit the ever unreachable target? Will I be a naggy old spinster? Who knows? Is it a sin to seek for fortune telling?

Ironically, I was telling my friends that I would go for dating after this Saturday's Macro-Economics lesson. A big fat laugh. Think I can't go anymore. HA. HA. HA! Study study study. Need to stock up my fridge on some diazepam for my later years lols.

2010-10-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

Guess I'm just used to it all. This is the understatement of the year.

My sister, my family and my other half.
Scientists say that chemistry runs out after 1 year and a half. That equates to 18 months. I'm not saying that we don't have chemistry, but just like the results say, after 18 months, it is all up to couples to make things happen.

Ever since you changed to the new phone contract, since calling me would incur a fee upon yourself, you began shunning away from initiating calls. Now games seem important. Even blatantly watching shows or playing games when I'm talking. You used to mind ALOT when I did that. It pissed you off. Well, you are doing that exact same thing now. I never scolded you or was so pissed off by that.

Tired. Of always thinking of things to talk over the phone. Maybe you just want to get back to playing your games. Ok. Maybe you should hurry play your games instead of speaking to me. Seems like an awful lot of a chore to you.

I Hate University Life. No one understands.

It's so Hard.

2010-08-10T23:53:00.003+08:00

I really think that I had almost died today- of mere oxygen deficiency. Left there for almost an hour, I really thought that I couldn't make it through. No one was there (except for the occasional visit). I was holding my pride in. Breathing got so hard, I went into a state of hyperventilation. Even so, I felt a little de-oxygenated. Coupled with nervousness of my pending doom and the numbness that was creeping from my fingers to my arms and then to my feet, it never felt so bad.

I was lifting the covers, willing time to pass quickly. When the door opened, man, I knew help was here.

When I got into the bathroom, I collapsed onto the floor. Gosh, my ribcage, they were so tight. Worst of all, when I got to Yishun, some volcano erupted.

2010-03-09T01:31:00.002+08:00

Well, anyway, a MAJOR event happened last Saturday (I'll get to it soon)

I had longed for the Breakfast Deluxe for oh so long and guess what? I finally ate it! I was actually supposed to have ate it with Mr. Babi, but... ... :D

After that lip-smacking meal, I prepared to go for Gravical '10- Rockclimbing competition organized by SMU. Heng Yi and Andy entered as Intermediate Males so I went in the hope of catching a glimpse of them competing. Alas! Heng Yi HAD ALREADY COMPLETED!!!!! and worse still, NO ONE TOOK HIS VIDEO nor his PICTURES!!

ARGH, JOEL was there all along and he missed out Heng Yi's pictures!!!

Lols, anyway, I got there just in time for Andy's last route. He hurt his right calf while trying to get past the bonus tile (if I remember correctly, it was a huge blue volume). and Heng Yi injured his right knee cap :c Both of them were trying to act "man", especially with Andy, he was saying, "Nah, let the blood stay, it looks more "man" this way."

Gosh, you get speechless talking to guys like that. But it is they, who are your biggest source of entertainment, with all their male chauvinistic point of view. BOO!

After the competition, Joel told us of an old friend he was meeting at Plaza Singapura, so off we went, with his room mate -Leo (from China), Andy (Philipines), Heng Yi (some weird country, wahaha) and me (Singapore)! (What an international bunch of us). I heard that the old friend was a rather knowledgeable teacher whose name was Kenneth, or so I heard.

Joel chose Swensens'; we sat and waited for the teacher who was late (for an hour I guess?). When he finally came, Joel called him over to our table and within that few seconds, that was the most horrific moment of my beautiful Saturday afternoon- for I realized that man was far too familiar a figure to forget.

He. Was. My secondary school teacher - Mr. Kelvin Yew. I immediately turned to Joel: "Isn't he Kelvin?!" Too coincidental.

For now, it is hard to explain my usage of the term "horrific" as seen above.

Nonetheless, he remembered me too.

Because we had met before, lunch was much more entertaining, reminiscing the past and of course our unforgettable nemesis. Despite that, I still felt unbelievable that the world was so small. What was worse was when he turned to Heng Yi and asked:" Are you ..." My heart almost jumped out. I mean how are you supposed to answer your teacher a question like that? Heng Yi replied almost instantaneously to my pleasant dismay, haha, with the answer Yes. Luckily Kelvin wasn't opposed to it or anyhow.

He's getting married, so I guess wedding bells are ringing! I'm so glad for him. He's a great guy.

After the meal, we set off to Cathay Cineleisure to watch Alice in Wonderland. It was simply.. alright. Lols, Heng Yi kept commenting on the white and red queen. I think he might be that pig that tumbles over when I need a warm cushion in the future. "PIG PLEASE!" Joking, joking!

"Oink!"

2010-03-09T00:10:00.002+08:00

You know? Looking at Kelvin's pictures on facebook makes me want to just R-U-N. I really needed a break. Not another refreshment course. I am not sure if I could pull through my presentation on Friday. Seriously? I can't.

I need you to know that I need my break! Going Hong Kong, going XX, going YY, just anywhere is fine with me. Not a climbing break, 'cos that isn't exactly my idea of a break. A break where I just go exploring.

Anyway, since Joel and Anroi are going, things aren't gona be THAT bad right? So I'd just join them and see how things go. I mean do they have cinema theatres there? I will keep my mind open. Bring books, STOP showing faces, whatever, at least maybe a break is better than having nothing at all.

Seriously? I doubt I can go without a group of people overseas. 100% sure.

So I guess except for the climbing break? I'm gona be stuck here in this country for another 3 years till I graduate. Trust me. This is how things are gona work out at this rate. It's alright. The money that I have earned by then can be used to support my spendings for 3 years to come.

Girl, I don't know how things would turn out but I have faith in you.

2009-08-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

I wish nothing more than to sing in my choir again with my batch of people. Olivia, Agnessa, Moritza, Natalie, Alex, Grace and Wee Leng, well, Shao Wei, O, how I really miss them. I miss you guys! The days we sang Dong Dang, gosh, I'm really choir-sick. I want to hear the choir again. Be in my choir. Be part of a beautiful choral group. Part of the fun we had those days. So. Sick. I need choir remedy. I need music. I need to "Shinjiru".

2009-08-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

If I were a boy... I'd marry moritza. I still think Bryan should date Moritza. Ya? Bryan? Haha. Time to sleep!

2009-06-09T21:59:00.003+08:00

Reading through my guides' blog, I felt really nostalgic. Missing all those days when things were fun. Marching through those "barked" commands of the drill mistresses; doing outdoor cooking; blowing on the flames beneath the make-shift stove we made on those bricks; having camps, not forgetting those solo night walks with the scouts. Those great times. I realized those little girls whom I taught the drills, had grown up. New little girls full of passion for guides are welcomed into the family. Hopefully, the management is way better than my batch, under YoYo and my command. One of my regret, was the improper management of the guides of our batch. The bad blood between us kind of caused a split in the two companies. The greatest harm, inflicted not only on me, but the girls too. Sorry! But nonetheless, I still loved my guiding days!! I want to be a guide again! Tie pony tails! Wear my barret! Wear and polish my black boots! Don on my uniform which I happen to be VERY proud of! Buckle my belt and flash offf the shiny silver "PANDU PUTERI" = girl guides in malay. Show off the year's THINKING DAY BADGE! Sew on my proficiency badges on my sleeves! Peek on my rank at the corner of my eyes, hehe! I LOVE being a GIRL GUIDE!

This is the guiding light of mine, I'm gona let it shine! x3
Let it shine x2
all the time!

Signing off,
your CL, Sue Yee of the 2006 batch.

2009-06-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

Sick of letting Miss Angela rule.

Time to unleash deviree.

2009-03-15T17:55:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just wished that I had grown up a little older, so things would just go my way because "I'm old enough". A simple reason to counter difficult situations, but of course that's definitely against the natural order of how things work.

When I'm old enough, I would not get scolded just because I had stayed out late.

When I'm old enough, I can tell them of Heng Yi and not be so secretive because it's killing me.

When I'm old enough, I can wear make up and dress up nicely instead of the typical school dress code they subject me to. Mother tells me,"No, this one is too mature for you! Take this!" "No, you don't have breasts to fill these clothes." etc. Maybe I should swear by shirts and long pants someday soon.

When I'm old enough, I can go on trips without them restricting me. Can you believe it? Even a trip with Bryan and Kenneth (my childhood friends) got them so uptight, so how can I go elsewhere?

Just because I look small doesn't mean I'm immature. Im 19! Girls go out partying late into the night (that's not what I want) but I just want to illustrate the point that I'm still me. The old me from the secondary school days with just a wee bit more freedom. Why are they always emphasizing on academics, education and study? It's not like they fully understand RP's system, do they? Every weekend at home is practically cooping my brain up in a jail, where the guard has nothing else to say to the prisoner other than to study, study and study harder. Communication is one wonderful thing which our family never learned. Learning to control their raised voices and temper is a miracle that will never happen in a million years.

I wished we'd be on better terms, like a typical nice warm family, a nice sanctuary to return to. Haha, maybe I'm just sick of being treated "small" :]

2009-03-15T16:08:00.003+08:00

Ok, great, guess what I've done now? I've signed up to be a part of Boulderactive '09. I'm not sure if I'm still in the right state of mind, signing up for a sport I'm not competent in, but yea, guess it is as they say- to have some fun and exposure. Moreover, the design of the singlet isn't too bad :] (that's 1 plus point)

The one point that detered me from joining was that no one I knew was joining. I mean, not literally, physically yes, there are people I know joining. But mentally speaking, or in the social sense, their presence seemed insignificant or rather a little disturbing. There is this one big problem that existed way before everything started and who knows if it can even be corrected. It annoys the hell out of me, but it seems the ones causing the problem are either obliviously ignorant of what is happening, or they are conveniently letting these little pesky problems slip by because the victim is anyone but themselves. You know? My English Teacher taught me something called "Basic Courtesy" that should be known to every single individual regardless of xxxxxx group. When you meet someone new in the group, the "middleman" introduces both party. When you have other xxxxx in the group, be the middleman.

But I guess they just love the exclusive rights given to them. Coveting it so much they refuse to share the joy with others. Great, I couldn't care less. Guess I would just cuddle my storybook and snuggle to sleep...

zzz...

O, if you guys want to, do drop by the open space of Velocity on this Friday from 1pm to 10pm to support me, though I doubt I would complete any routes. It might be a disappointing performance since I'm still rather rusty. Haha! :]

2009-03-14T09:15:00.003+08:00

At last, I returned to the realm of the climbing peeps. After so long a break, training kind of had a great big impact on my fragile frame. (啊！人家娇小可爱吗！叫我真么能爬得好呢？~)

*撒娇 :x

"ARGH!"

"OUH!~"

Noises like that emanate from the dreadful bathroom singer.

Sit-up (with 5kg weights held at the back of my head), push-ups, leg raise (similarly with 5kg weights supported by my calf), + training...

Result: Intense muscle aches everywhere. You name it, I've got it. :x Arms, legs and even the butt (little bruises attained from an improper landing).

We ended a little late, so there wasn't much time to go over to Sim Lim Square to buy the battery. We then debated on where to have dinner- Bishan, Bugis or Yio Chu Kang. Babi said he left the choice to me, but IN FACT, he wanted to go to Bishan to eat Korean Rice Cake, haha, I saw through it all and just did him a favor, choosing Bishan as our next destination...

Anyway, we had this little bet going on. The prize: Wishes, or rather, when rephrased means something that the loser would have to do something for you :p

It started when we were waiting for Bus 171 to arrive. There was this Iris planner board which estimates the bus arrival time. I confidently told him that it would arrive in 3 mins time based on the Iris planner, but evidently, the system FAILED~!! He bet with me that it would arrive in 5 mins time, but the bus came LATE! It came 5-6 mins past my 3 mins estimation -.-'' Naturally, I lost. Lols! We continued this betting game even on the M.R.T., guessing how many people there will be in the last cabin. I said 25, and BINGO! haha, it was a 1 day event thing, a mini-competition, but Babi still won in the end :'[ Hehe, next time, I will beat you! It was fun, waiting, hopping on the train in anticipation that our guesses were correct as we counted the number of people on board.

Ok, back to Bishan, dinner consisted of Korean Cold Noodles instead of Rice Cakes for Babi. The Cold Noodles were refreshing; the noodle had a unique texture to it; the soup tasted light but heavy at the same time. Somehow it wasn't that good a flavor after drinking for a long time. How do you describe it? It is good the first few spoonfuls, but then you start getting tired drinking from the cold, thin metal bowl.

As for me, the normal healthy Yong Tau Foo, nothing much to elaborate on O.O

It is weird sometimes, when everyone's having sales, "BIG HUGE Bargains", "Great DISCOUNTS", but you don't find something you like. It is like when there is a huge mega shoes sale, but you aren't in the mood to shop for one. Babi's been looking around for a watch, but it seems despite the sales, those watches he liked didn't seem affordable even after the discount.

P.S. some guys who spoke like machine guns made a great impact on Heng Yi and I the day before. Why me? Hehe...

2009-03-09T00:29:00.004+08:00

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Lols, well, finally. And I will not fail to emphasize that in all due respects that I am at last FREED~! (of all undue pressure acting upon me)

Yo, baby, yo baby!

My holiday module has come to an end, and Clinical Trials has been pushed to the very deepest corner of my mind, somewhere of which its exact location is still unknown. I'm going to try and make the best of my break and get somewhere, do something worth the while.

Saturday, 7th March marked the start of SMU's Gravical Bouldering Competition. Babi took part in it and woohoo, he got the 12th placing in the MEN's INTERMEDIATE category! It was a really hot day that day, with the sun shining mercilessly nonetheless... But yeah, that wasn't the main point.

There were 4 routes in total to be completed by the Intermediate Men. The first 2 routes needed more of technique I guess. The tiles, or as some would refer to as the "rocks", were hard to grip. There was one pincher which was really hard to grasp. But at least the Babi managed to touch the Bonus tile!! WooHoo! Then the last 2 routes were rather interestingly set. It required good execution of moves and dynamic power to complete. It was kind of height-biased, or so I might add. Not very favorable for shorties like me :x While the other climbers had to jump a little from the previous tile, the Babi easily got through that stage by merely reaching out his long arms across the overhang -.-'' I was so "awed" by his extended arm. Thanks, if only I had that pair of arms, I'd sail through my Novice Women's Competition. The second last route was a "sloppy" route- full of slopers. In case some of you are wondering, slopers are those shaped like- crudely put brxxxxts (so now do you get the idea), which is a test of a climber's contact strength. Babi breezed through it, its no wonder, why? Don't ask me why? Isn't he the dirty-minded young man? Hehe :x He flashed that route. The last one too :] Impressive.

Result: 12/ 21 placing.

Not bad for a novice intermediate :D + He's my Babi! So GOOD!! JIAYOUS in your Boulderactive!!

O, by the way, after the competition, we went to Heeren, there was this little games corner at HMV, we played StreetFighter. Guess what? Babi chose Akuma to fight and lost one round. I took over and won two rounds. Hehe, what's more, I had no tactics. My strategy was to frantically hit any buttons found on the controller. HAHA! Girls are better at fighting games than guys think we suck :x

2009-03-01T11:36:00.005+08:00

Songs like “Welcome to My Life”, not forgetting the sentence, “I just wanna scream~, how could this happen to me?” that scheduled itself on the “loop” mode, those songs seem to mock at my life and I.

Haha!

*Abridged version

Sidetracking, does anyone know of a good place to scream but no one cares and listens? Just a random question :]

Debra and Jian Hui made it to the "Rolls of Honor", WOOHOO! Congratz!

Jing too. Guess he really was that good with his I.T. stuffs. Thought that emo-ness got in the way of his studies but woa, I got to admit, he really is good with his I.T.. Moreover, he was the one who helped me tide over my V.B. crisis during my Year One days.
*Giving my silent thanks here.

Anyway, we went to Orchard the day before. We ate at Carl's Jr..

2009-02-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

Woohoo! Tell you what, Mr. JJ Lin is dropping by at Northpoint @ 2pm, and if I missed that timing, it would be 6pm, @ Jurong Point. I haven't really gone for his special guest appearances before. Other than on T.V., N.D.P. and C.D., I hardly ever saw him :x

So I guess if, that is a BIG if, I could go see him, it'd be my first time up close as someone who appreciates his music and composes. :p

And, to my babi, thanks!

Valentine's Day was brought forward, so after FYP, we went marketing at AMK Hub. Ate at Subway and subsequently shopped for our ingredients. Babi wanted to eat noodles, so PASTA it was!

Noodle: Tubular Spaghetti
Sauce: Traditional Tomato Paste
Ingredients: Prawns + Cod fish + Mushrooms

For dessert, presenting- Mango Sorbet!
Nutritional Facts:

99% fat free
Dairy free (lactose free, so babi can eat without running in and out of the toilet)

O no! I feel hungry now :x

2009-02-12T21:12:00.003+08:00

Emoo the cow makes a special appearance at my favorite emo hang out place.

Let's chill before the prison term starts, and life's essence gets sucked dry out of the bubbly dreadful bathroom singer :]

Cheers to Jing!

*P.S.: Sorry, don't mind me, but I just had to get this off my chest. Moph.

2009-01-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

Wishing all you guys a Happy Chinese New Year!!

P.S.: Sorry Babi, that I'm not here in Singapore to spend this festive season with you. Take care hor, don't go rockclimbing everyday, trying to tire yourself out -.-'' Rest a little more :]

Have a real happy and joyful festive season, guys! I'm going off to Malaysia tomorrow, in the wee morning, back in Singapore by Wednesday midnight I guess (most probably)...

Take care! All of you!

2009-01-21T20:13:00.002+08:00

VID** sucks, period!

Comments for individual:
Hi,I am glad you enjoyed the problem packages and were always enthusiastic in your attitude towards learning. It makes teaching also fun. Good work today, keep it up!

Daily Grade: B!?

This is the fifteenth week and still she is as unreasonable as ever. Phft! Bleah!

2009-01-20T08:55:00.002+08:00

Blues, jazzy, um hm...

Anyway, I have got this really strong urge to go over to the Esplanade :]

2009-01-11T08:50:00.006+08:00

The day before was the qualifying round for Novice, Intermediate and Open Women, to top that off, we also had the Novice, Intermediate and Open Men. We utilized both the indoor rock wall, as well as the outdoor one at the A.L.C. [Adventure Learning Centre]. Things got awry first thing in the morning with the Registration Booth. The collection of money wasn't really a problem, but the filling of the forms snowballed into quite a gimongous chaotic situation that took quite a while to subdue. As expected, Zaid wasn't really pleased to see all these, so he stepped in to "alleviate" the confusion. Nonetheless, it did help.

Anyway, moving on, Heng Yi took part in the Intermediate Men Category. He was the first climber [IM01], ascending up the 25m (estimated) wall steadily. His first slip happened at around the second or third panel. But he managed to cling on the the wall using the crimp, where his finger strength kind of "saved his fall". The second one was due to a totally unexpected slip that caused his fall. He thought he had it there but as he was making a move for the subsequent tile, his leg slipped under him, and he fell off from the wall, with the harness arresting his fall.

But, it wasn't too bad hur! The Registration Booth was in charge of tabulating the results, so I had an insight on who made it to the Finals- the top 8 qualifiers. Many other climbers fell at around the same tiles as Heng Yi did, so his chances of winning wasn't completely eliminated.

:c But the downside was that the Intermediate Men's route had a few extreme sit-in moves which Heng Yi might have had difficulties executing due to his knee injury.

When results were out, guess what!!??

BABI made it to the Finals!! At the 8th position! With a knee injury!! Muahaha! Congrats :]

O, ya, we've got our own mascot too, his name is Max, the frog Matthew and Penguin caught at A.L.C. on Friday night. Jeannie, Iffah and ZiZi were so freaked out at the mere sight of the frog. Gosh, it wasn't even out of the tub! For God's sake, it was safely secured inside. -.-''

The day was freaking tiring on the whole.

Zz, oink, zz, oink..

2009-01-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, everything seems so predictable. What with climbmax promising it would be a fast game, I end up having to stay till the competition ends to tabulate the results. -.-" In a normal circumstance, I would not complain, but because so much stuffs has since happened, I kind of don't give a damn. UTs coming up, things doesn't seem well, good game, girl, prepare to fail :[

2009-01-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

Hohoho!! 3 more tiring weeks in school :x What with ClimbMax 09, U.T. and all...

2009-01-01T15:00:00.001+08:00

You say it best, when you say nothing at all.

2008-12-21T10:48:00.002+08:00

Argh! So cash-strapped.. Kader has not given us our pay yet. I am in serious need of $$! About the back-packing trip that we had discussed for so long, finally, we got the initial stages straightened out. We, meaning my childhood friends: Brian and Kenneth, Amelia (Kenneth's girlfriend), Heng Yi and I. Destination: Japan (Tokyo, Sapporo and Hokkaido). We would be spending approximately 10 days there :] But the problem is... it seems like we are going next year end. I seriously doubt I can save enough money. HELP!

2008-12-19T13:02:00.002+08:00

How I envy Zi Ning, leading such a happy-go-lucky life :] Accompanied by the beauty and elegance of food, carefree laughter and utmost fun. 幸福，真的很幸福。我们要好好珍惜。
It is going to be a tough year ahead for us. Hope we can pull through. 加油！Everyone!

2008-12-17T21:09:00.003+08:00

Hm, I haven't been updating the blog for a long long while. Well, significant updates that happened, well much had happened.

The I.T. show got me a little worked up. Not because of the job or anything. Part of the reason was because of Belle. Anyways, I worked in the I.T. show, for ACER, yet again. Surprisingly, for a second-timer-noob-cum-I.T.-idiot like me, I managed to learn a wee bit more about I.T. stuffs and scraped through selling 19 laptops in 2 days! Mind you! N-I-N-E-T-E-E-N!? I don't know how I managed to pull that stunt off :x For the record, I sold 20 laptops in the last I.T. show in 4 days. A big thanks to Matthew and Yu Han, for dropping by, Boss too :] And an especially Gimongous thanks to my Babi, for being there. Gosh, it was so tiring working, but at least it seemed like there was something to look forward to at the end of the day.

Holidays are on full swing. It is like an excercising regimen for me. We had planned to combine fun with healthy lifestyle or something along that line, yeap, you got the idea. Went for "trekking" on monday, 15th December. The month December was significant enough to warn anyone that it was "the rainy season". Nevertheless, the foolish me still went ahead without giving it so much of a second thought. Lols, so we walked all the way from Yishun to Upper Pierce Reservoir on foot, bringing nothing but our EZ-link cards, my I.C., a packet of tissue, his handphone and a handy pouch to contain those items mentioned above [p.s.: notice the absence of an umbrella].

We continued walking until the last part of our trip, when we just entered the entrance of Upper Pierce Reservoir [and the entrance is so so so so so... far away from the real destination, considering that we were on foot], not long after, it started drizzling. Great. Now, Mr. Babi Henry had to mention: 下大一点啊! [meaning make it rain heavier!] *Bish, and it really did.

We. Were. Drench.

Envision that chinese phrase 落汤鸡 and then fit us into the picture. We fit EXACTLY. Armed with nothing over our heads and a shelter so so many million steps away, vulnerable, we stand. In spite of lush vegetation above us, they provided no help. Drenched, from head to toe. Then an incoming lorry stopped by. He gave us 2 ponchos, those disposable ones that come in many different colors. A yellow and a green one, I suppose. He took the green one and put it on. O.M.G. You guys should have seen how he looked, so freaking funny!! With his hair all wet, it went limp on his head, plus the disposable raincoat looking too small for his size. Gosh, you guys should have been there. With the hoodie above his head? Classic. Speechless.

Haha, anyway, the heavy downpour lasted only for a short while and being the Babi that he was, he took it off as soon as he could get rid of that makeshift raincoat. ("It is toxic to our skin"quoted from the Babi, but really was just a lame excuse to get it off, hehe!).

By the way, anyone interested in donating blood? There's an event at Dhoby Ghaut Station from 12pm-6pm on the 19-21 December :]

O, and I so am looking forward to the W54K gathering on the 23 December, pray I don't overeat :x Control me!! Haha!

2008-11-24T00:17:00.005+08:00

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2008-11-21T01:31:00.002+08:00

Happy 1 Month Anniversary, baby! (or rather, babi!) :]

Love ya'!

Credits: Deviantart.com

2008-11-10T17:06:00.002+08:00

ARGH! So freaking hungry right now... Starved. :x Here is my diet plan for today.

Breakfast:

2 slices of bread with butter and kaya spread

Lunch:

cereal
biskuit with a creamy interior

Haha, for the sake of money, it is worth however long I can persevere this insane dieting plan. :x

But I swear I will not lose control over this fad. This I know for sure, for I am the renowned Babi who cannot resist the luring temptation of FOOD!! Muahaha!

2008-11-05T14:40:00.009+08:00

Ster-ster! Take care of yourself alright? If your father is not fetching and if no one is going back with you, give me a buzz ok? Sorry for not being there when things happened. Hope you like that plushie!

****

Great. I'm at a loss now. What am I to do? How would you react to something like that? I'm no great motivation speaker. I have a serious inability to express and influence another to think positively. It is hard, no doubt. I understand totally. If it were me, I would have gone bonkers ages ago. I would not have had the strength to last that long a time.

To see another so demoralized, it hurts.

To know that another is disappointed in none other than oneself, it is heart-wrenching.

What would one do to rectify this inbalance? It seems saddening. But I have to be strong. Be that pillar which stands strong amidst the storms. Cliche as it sounds :x 你要加油!

2008-10-30T11:04:00.002+08:00

YEAH! I am going to get my first ever pair of rock climbing shoes today. Most probably, it would be a Rock Pillar (Pearl), unless something else catches my eye. First thing first, what I would be looking at is comfort. Damn the school rock climbing shoes! It is so uncomfortable, often inflicting pain on the back of my heels when worn for a prolonged period of time. Since I have another year or so to climb, why not get a new one with the pay I got from IT show?

With my shoes, I now have a goal and direction. It is easier for me to go Climb Asia now that I have my own shoes and am not so reliant on those school shoes.

First stop- train harder :]

Go, Sue Yee! Aja! Fighting!

2008-10-29T23:40:00.004+08:00

PP Assessment did not go as well today :[

First thing first, I was a little too overdressed for that matter.
I was not very well prepared (evidently I was at a loss for words for too many a time)
Too much long awkard silences ... ... :x
Made one grave mistake.
I was definitely beating around the bush.

Not a good feeling. But here's what the advisor has to say: "Clear & well prepared presentation." The first assessor: "Good work in terms of presentation but still require a little bit more logical explanation (I agree! No logical flow at all from my side!!)She is fluent.Variety of information there."

Bleah! Luckily Heng Yi, Nurul and Jian Hui were there with me, if not I would have panicked and worried so much about being overdressed to calm down for the presentation at all.

2008-10-09T22:42:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO! I can successfully complete the monkey bar station! Twice! Go Sue Yee!

2008-10-01T10:21:00.009+08:00

Hoho! The brownies weren't too bad :x From pOsh. Wal Nutt B and M and Ann or something like that.

Take a look at this:

Comments for individual : Hi Sue Yee, as always, you were very active in your suggestions and participation, which is good. I am starting to gradually leave you to do your work alone, unless you need my help, as I thnk you can work pretty well on your own. You seemed a little impatient with your team mates though, what is the matter? :) Your team mates also indicated that you could have shared more useful ideas. Teamwork is also important, so maybe can try to develop this area too ya.

WHAT!? I should have been the one with all the possible feedbacks of which I could think of. Not you guys! What rights do you have to tell me off, when the whole team discussion is off-limit to me?! I had a freaking hard time trying to catch up with your pace. What you know is what I do not know. So tell me what "useful ideas" could I have shared?! Argh! Pardon me.

2008-09-30T03:11:00.001+08:00

One word. Confused.

2008-09-27T15:39:00.001+08:00

Poor Eugene. Poor Matthew. All the way people! Stupid UT week.

2008-09-27T15:26:00.002+08:00

好烦哦！要我怎么办呢？怎么解决这个难题？再这样下去，一定不好受。啊！！天啊！

2008-09-24T22:53:00.002+08:00

-.-'' Heng Yi was kind of random today. Going around telling Nurul and Debra weird stuffs, lols! (Don't mind him, he's not his usual self :x) The day before, all thanks to Benjamin, Emily told us of the happenings of W56E. To be more specific, what happened to Heng Yi. Muahaha! Guess what?! Henry Monster strikes again!! Being so close to nature like always, he got so nervous presenting that he walked back to his seat barefooted without realizing that something was amiss. It wasn't until the facilitator purposely called out to the class about the slippers then did he realize that he walked off, leaving his leather slippers behind :x lols! Over on our side, at W55B, we were laughing our heads off. That, I must say, is the typical Heng Yi that we had known all this while :p

Close to nature some more la! Haha! He was so damn embarrassed...

2008-09-21T10:31:00.003+08:00

:] We went eating at Lau Pa Sat. Ordering the above: Sambal Kang Kong and Sambal Sting Ray!! +Sugar cane too.. WooHoo! Went shopping, found a necklace I liked alot, but of which the wood was chipped off. Those one-piece dresses seem to be off my limits. Either they are too long or the design is too flowery. Shorts seem to be of the better choice. Quoted. :x Thanks loads for the Japanese Concept thingy!

2008-09-18T00:16:00.008+08:00

Sorry Matthew!! Really sorry about the rope burn that you got the day before. It was partly my fault. I too suffered rope burns. Ouch. But Matthew got it worse. Isa too.

I was a little disappointed in my performance. I could not complete those routes. I could not even go past the overhang. I am not sure if I am using my height as an excuse for not completing or is it just a physiological block? Argh.

All in all, the understatement of the year- lead climbing is damn scary.

You can:

suffer from rope burns. (trust me on this one)
get a phobia of heights even when you were not as afraid.
get demoralized
start doubting yourself, wishing you were a little taller. Or rather being a tall bastard would be ideal. For the first time in so many years, I seriously hate, abhor and detest the fact that I am short. It makes me doubt my abilities. Seems like I lack in them. Lack in techniques, lack in explosive power to dyno and so on. ARGH!

Esther, get well soon!! :]

2008-09-06T15:45:00.001+08:00

Jenny. It is all in the lyrics. Told ya' so!

2008-09-03T21:13:00.002+08:00

To Debra, Jobelle and especially Nurul:

Don't worry too much. Don't forget I am the strong rock-climber-cum-badminton-player-cum-bathroom-crazed-vocal-goner. Mentally and physically, a little tired, but still strong all the same :] Haha, suffering from severe sore throat now. Oww... ... not forgetting that I am currently suffering from previous-class-syndrome -.-"
New classmates, new faces. Aw. Two of them seems nice: Rous and Sharon. Yea. You got it right! The OTHER Sharon. Tan. So if you want to call both the SHARONs, just say," Tan Teo" (Dan Tio meaning wait, in Hokkien I guess?) :x The other guy, Haniffa or whose name went something like that was rather nice too. There is this other muslim indian, Shaheed, whose features were well-defined, he gave our Miss Debra a new name- Mak Cik. (Spelled correctly, if otherwise, please inform the crazed vocal goner, thanks!) Haha, new people tomorrow. Hmph. Got to do my P.P. now.

2008-09-02T20:53:00.002+08:00

COMEX, an IT show for the IT know-it all. Not really a place for someone like me- an IT-idiot. Not bad I guess, it seems a little too little, but I am glad to say that for a noob like me, selling 20 laptops isn't too bad a deal :] It was so tiring. I never knew standing around, running here and there, one could even suffer from severe back pains. I have learnt a lot from the customers there. I even know the terms for some of the parts in Chinese! Woohoo! A small accomplishment, I must say. *I really can't say much, for I am in the dark. What is exactly happening, I do not know. I may be stupid, but I can't stop myself from thinking and acting this way. Stop it! Maybe with time, things will get better. Things will get clearer, just like how things got clearer when I made that right decision with ****.

2008-08-22T10:39:00.002+08:00

I'm a little afraid that things are starting to change. I want things to stay the same. Can't it stay the same? Or am I the one changing? A little depressed now, if I must say.

2008-08-20T02:42:00.003+08:00

YEAH!
Go, Sue Yee! My S.W.O.T. analysis is officially DONE!! WOOHOO!
Gone are the days of procrastination. But. A big big "but". It is still not a cause for celebration yet. I still have "4Ps", "Product Performance", "How to Deal with the CFT" and "Rival Co.- Compare and Contrast". Hmm, still seems a long long way. Anyway, fighting! Thanks Marcus for keeping me accompanied through the night (or should I say till the early morning), aiding me along the way :]

2008-08-17T14:28:00.002+08:00

A dreary Sunday. Spent cooped up at home. Confined within the boundaries of my bedroom, sitting cross-legged on my bed. Ironically, it was kind of productive as compared to the past week, where I have not been researching for any information of any relation to the company of which I chose for my Professional Profiling. But still, it is not enough. A lot of other areas are waiting for me to explore and analyze in my report -.-'' Bleah! Go, girl! Go, Kimmy! Go, Ster-ster!

2008-08-16T12:13:00.005+08:00

Updates

Jian Hui: I think Aidil's getting the drinks, let me check it out again :]

Alan is so dirty minded!! Gosh! The day before, we had a badminton camp, and he was so so horny man! After badminton, I brought Li Shi over to the rock wall and I introduced her to Jason and Uncle. Then Uncle came over and entertained her with his signature lame cold jokes, making me the butt of his jokes. Thanks ar! She tried a few routes that Jason and Uncle set and it was kind of fun, for once, I had her here with me, really understanding a whole new definition of "having fun", the way we have not really been able to experience in badminton for so long a time.

Linett sprained her ankle and she happened to only have a pair of sport shoe with her, so I lent her my sandals. After Uncle changed out of his attire, we walked her to the taxi stand, where he got her a cab. We then went to Banquet, where he ate "Yong Tau Foo" again -.-'' And guess what? It is the sinful one- the kind with lots of sweet sauce all over. He even ordered the iced Milo I drank- the one where they added condensed milk. Oh gosh. [*faint twice over]

By the time, I went back home, it was around 11pm. So I went over to Esther's house to get a pair of sandals for the badminton camp the next day, where I might need to use it for wet activities. Walking through the make-shift night market, guess who I saw?! Wee Leng!! My secondary school friend! Haha! So coincidental! We then sat down and chatted. Weird, she told me Xue Zhi had a crush on her. Oh my god. That sissy guy who dated Anita?! She told me of another one of whom she met for only 3 days and he started making a move on her. Heard that that guy was a jerk. Eugene even came into the picture. The Eugene from my primary school days. Flirtatious is the only appropriate word to describe his personality. Full stop :x

Then I told her of what has been happening to me these past few years, yea. :] I kind of wonder what happened to that irritating tubifex worm. We chatted till 12am which was really late. Luckily my family was already asleep, if not my father would have scolded me.

2008-08-14T23:31:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's a tough day ahead. Badminton camp and then on to rockclimbing. Phew. Exhausting day ahead. Go, girl!

2008-08-14T22:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!
Had a great time :] Thanks loads!

2008-08-13T13:06:00.009+08:00

Really glad the "U Guys" powerpoint slides ended up great. I started off compiling the pictures over my Saturday and Sunday, those old ones we had together. Kudos to Jobelle, I think she really did put alot of effort in it. And by that, I really mean alot! Just look at how elaborately the 3rd slide was done. God! I could not have done that, what with the animations and all! Basically, those other slides I did, I was not sure it was good, so I shared it with Jobelle on Sunday, asking for her comments. [*I was afraid that the captions would invoke a 冷场, so I sent her the powerpoint slides and she did the rest of the parts (+ the compiling of the pictures we took during our younger days [she came up with the idea]) The ones I did on Uncle's slide was funny I think :x and U-Gene's. The other one I was glad about was the photos I dug up from the album, so I decided to put those *erhem pictures of Aidil in one slide, naming it also "3 Musketeers", putting red targets on Aidil's chest and possible evidences that point to his exotic behavior. :x

The pioneering scientists.

The other guys "PS" U-gene :x

Uncle acting cute YET again. How surprising!

Isa and Aidil with their exotic behavior.

Jobelle, Zi Ning and I!!

The 3 Musketeers: Jobelle, Nurul and I :]

Look who ruined the picture? ME!! and YATI!! Spoiler! Muahaha!

Sitting on the escalator...

That's our BIG sista' NURUL!

The emo kids on the block.

Sharon and moi :D

Oh, guys? We will be having a class outing soon.

Event: Sentosa-cum-Pot-Luck

Date: 20 August 2008

Venue to meet (rendezvous): Harbourfront M.R.T. station

Time: 12nn

Things to bring: (those who have them, please tag :])

The item (food) you would be bringing (*PLEASE tag!)
Poncho/ mat
Serviettes/ Tissue
Trash Bag
Plastic Fork and Spoon
Disposable Plates
Sunblock
Your Beach Wear
Balls/ Frisbees and whatnots
A change of clothes too :]

We should be leaving before dusk, and if time permits, we might chill out at VivoCity before heading back :]

Stay tuned for more updates!

2008-08-09T11:43:00.003+08:00

Hey, guys! Sorry I did not make it to the movies with you guys! Missed out on the fun -.- Anyway, I was tired, so I only ran jogging round the school track for 3 rounds with Uncle before I headed home. So Uncle left for the rock wall, while I was home-bound. My mum left for Malaysia over the weekends till Monday, so she would be back on Tuesday. Hence, I might as well be home earlier to take care of my sister. The problem trigger the day before was only an introduction to what I would be exposed to the next semester, and by the looks of it, it is not going to easy any easier to tackle. Ouch!

Hmm, I went blog surfing and saw Zi Ning blogging about me, saying that my "brain is not clean", always saying "those weird weird things". Oh My God! Is that me!? Woops! I must make my stand clear, alright? Lols! For most of the time, the horny perverted one is not me, but Uncle!! 90% of the time, he initiates a "bickering session" that will lead me to say "those weird weird things" as quoted from 墨鱼鸡蛋 (ZN), projecting to others a mistaken image of my purest and innocent mind :] haha! He is to blame!! Muahaha! And then he would say," What you thinking!?" Argh! *Bish!

Oh, hey guys! Could you all like send me the pictures we all had as a class? I did not save any links or whatsoever. :x Thanks loads! Love ya'!

2008-08-07T21:03:00.003+08:00

I almost made a wrong decision a year ago. I am glad I made the right one. For one, I myself think that the greatest obstacle was the childish attitude that has to be done away with. I thank god I made the right choice of listening to my own voice. Now, it seems too good to be true. Never in my entire life would I ever imagine things like that could happen to me. Is this a blessing?

2008-08-07T09:12:00.003+08:00

I feel so blessed. Too blessed, so much so that I pale in comparison to those poor kids worrying where their next meal would come from. Ethical problems arose. Controversies can come out of all these. Sometimes it seems things aren't what they seem to be. There might never be a balance in this world.

So be blessed.

2008-08-05T16:42:00.000+08:00

Cry not because it is over.
Smile, for it has happened.
I really am going to miss all these.

2008-08-05T15:02:00.002+08:00

Wah, so tired. Eyelids are drooping; it is Microbiology lesson again. Must. Go. Shape. Up.
Go, Sue Yee! After hearing Penguin's, Jing Yan and the tall bastard's success and determination in losing those weights, it really made me want to succeed as well as them. It seems like I have a new goal to work hard towards :] Later in the evening, I am going to have P.T. (Physical Training) in Badminton. Hope I get to do at least a few sets of sit ups, chin ups and 7 rounds of jogging round the track. Aja! Fighting!

Just heard from Selina: SoyaBean milk has been linked to the development of breast cancer. Oh. So, does that extend to Tofu too? :x Am I in danger? Argh!

I have to discipline myself and make sure I do my S.W.O.T. analysis and not procrastinate at all. GO!

2008-08-03T15:52:00.005+08:00

My To-do List:

Save enough money to buy a sports shoe for running.
Save enough money to buy a MadRock.
Save enough money to go out during the holidays on shopping and makan sprees with Esther, Kimmy and W54K.
Save enough money to go ***** at Farrer Park.
Have a routine- Jog at least once per week (not that hard :]) Make it twice or more if possible! Be more disciplined!
Save enough for contact lenses too :x
Treasure and make the most out of the time we have together.
Pictures! Pictures!!

Seems like a lot to commit to. :c Fighting!

*A leopard never changes it spots. Period.

2008-08-02T10:53:00.004+08:00

Yippie! Procrastination indeed got out of my way! I made it to Chua Chu Kang Sports Complex for my 7 rounds of jogging. And Yeah, I did it! The only thing that I missed out was the fitness corner workouts :c But it is alright for now, since next week seems to be a tough week ahead, all packed and filled with physical endurance training :] Shape up girl! Lose those flabs!

It really seems too good to be true. Wake me up. Release me from this endless labyrinth I have no control over. Am I dreaming? I cannot retrace my pathway back through the door of reality. Is this the repeat of another history? I hope not. Bless me. Bless you.

2008-08-01T22:47:00.003+08:00

Alright man! I have finished them all U.T.s. Now, it is time for P.P. preparation -_-'' I so am looking forward to it. :] Dramas, animes and more entertainment...

Yea, and tomorrow morning, I would be jogging. So I do hope that I can do some chin ups, sit ups. Get back in shape. Grow stronger :] Go, baby!

2008-07-31T18:47:00.008+08:00

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs &replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by them.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz.These people must state who they were tagged by [ESTHER] & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. How has blogger changed your life?

Well, it really is a channel for me to "fine tune" my command of language. It is where I try and learn different sytles of writing. My style of writing has undergone a drastic change if you would compare it to the very first post I had.

2. Do you daydream and if you do what do you usually find yourself 'dreaming' about?

I would dream about myself working either as a fantasy background vocalist or one of those singers singing in those chill-out pubs with a band or a pianist. Cool jazzy music. :]

3. What do you want to be when you grow up?

B.L.A.N.K.. This section is undergoing construction. Will be back to serving you better. Till then, we can add more occupations on the list of "What Do I Want to Be When I Grow Up".

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?

Prague. Definitely. That is where the choral festivals are held right? Where the heart of songs originate. Well, for me, that will be where I would like to immerse myself in- music. Especially chorale singing. Top choirs from a round the world come together to compete and show their prowess. I could just sit there and listen to them sing for a long long while.

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?

I'm not really sure. When I feel comfortable in a company of people of whom I have grown accustomed to, I'd be an extrovert. But when I feel that people detest me, or are not with me, I'm an introvert.

6. When you have made sure that no one is in the house when you are bathing, do you transform into "The Bathroom Singer"? (Sue changed it :])

I do!! Haha, so I think the neighbors kinda are stocking up on earmuffs and those sound proof earpieces that protects their vulnerable ears from my voice.

7. Have you a dark secret? (Sue changed it :])

Well, yeah. But I doubt it is serious. It happened all the way up till my primary school days.

8. Choose between thongs or g-string?

I never really know what's the difference too. :x (Wait, am I innocent or what?!) haha!

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

Yep, PP preparation, UT grades, GPA, procrastination, changing of classes.

10. What is your worst quality?

The amazing ability to procrastinate and being a slow coach (Sorry Esther!)

11. What is happiness?

When you are aware of what you are doing, When you do what you do best.

12. How do you hope to see yourself?(Esther changed it.)
A bubbly girl, with a sporty and sporting personality. An easy going one at it :]

13. What do you wish to change about yourself?

Lose weights! Lose the flabs! So I can strut on the beach next year with absolutely nothing to feel ashamed of. :x Exercise more and be a stronger girl, both mentally and physically. :]

14. What do you think about sex?(Esther changed it)
A sacred act with the one you love which could easily be tainted by temptation.

15. What would you do if you won the lottery?
Go on a makan spree! Then save the rest of the money for the Australia Trip with Bryan and Kenneth when I am twenty years of age.

16. Would you rather be in a happy marriage and poor or a bad marriage and rich?
Hmm, a tough one to choose. Both has an unhappy element in it. But if I really had to choose, I would be want to be with the one I love.

17. Before you go to sleep, what do you usually think about?
I reflect upon the happenings of the day. If not, I'd just drift to lalaland.

18. Where do broken hearts go? (Someone changed this)
To the hospital where willpower and encouragements will help heal this broken heart. Life does not end with the guy who dumped you or something. I must try and keep this in mind :x

19. Do you believe in fate?
Yes, at times!!

20. What were your parents going to name you if you'd been born the opposite gender?
I'm not sure, and I sure am not going to find out.

The 8 people!

1. Debra

2. Isa

3. Nurul

4. Zi Ning

5. Jobelle

6. Jian Hui

7. Jun Hui

8. U-Gene

2008-07-31T13:47:00.000+08:00

In class.
Bleah.
Newer updates.

2008-07-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

WOOHOOOOOOO!!!

Had loads of fun today. Really. This has got to be the best night ever, for this semester. Sarang Heyo! Well, I ate loads [and totally killed my throat. No voice, no voice~.] Coughing like mad. I had great time sitting at the water breaker chatting with Debra (a.k.a. 亲爱的) and then the guys at night. It was fruitful. Why? I burnt calories!! I cycled and jogged for one round :] [Though the calories came back again, in the form of FOOD.] :x

As expected of Heng Yi (a.k.a. the Tall Bastard/ the Rock/ Uncle/ 榴莲叔叔), he reached (not surprisingly) the earliest at a record time of 12+. Bravo! And then the guys took care of the starting of the fire and then the barbequeing of food for us all. Kudos to them!! Thanks guys!

Then, in the night, the main dish- StingRay!! Haha, I ate quite a lot, if I must say. Heng Yi too. We all played the game of "Truth and Dare", and many many many many things left unspoken surfaced. Lols! It was wild tonight. Really it was. So Fun! :] Muffin is so CUTE!!

Sarang Heyo!! I love all you guys! I will really miss all of you. Have another outing or bbq or chalet soon alright? I don't want to lose contact.

2008-07-30T12:08:00.002+08:00

The very first B.B.Q. with my class W54K. Isn't it great? WooHoo! :] What more can I say?

"Sarang Heyo!"

2008-07-29T15:25:00.000+08:00

ARGH! So pissed off with myself.

2008-07-27T20:41:00.002+08:00

What does it feel like now? It feels so distant, like the song of "Desperate" sung by Daphne Khoo. I am dreading the last day of school. Can't shake that feeling. I had sore throat over the weekend. Bleah. Not feeling too good now :x Can my throat make it in time for me to feast on the glorious food? Hmm. Let's see... haha..

My voice isn't too good for singing. It sounds like the croaking version of every toad's dream singer. Ouch!

2008-07-24T20:26:00.002+08:00

Give it my all. Less is more. Are you up for it?

Hallucinations, hallucinations and more hallucinations. Stop hovering over in the restricted premises.

2008-07-23T00:10:00.002+08:00

Well, an acronym for U.T. aka Understanding Test. Caution: Use it with discretion. I thought of it when I was in my year one and it randomly popped up in my head again. In my first year, when I got all stressed up thanks to U.T.s, I came up with this: U.T.= Ultimate Torture :] Yea, and it really was an ultimate torture at some point of a time. Yawns.

2008-07-22T23:13:00.004+08:00

Woa. I am so sleepy alright. I can barely keep those eyes open. When I think of what awaits me the day after tomorrow, it irks me. Yea, tell me about it. [*roll my eye] We went to see the movie- Dark Knight just earlier on. We caught the 7pm one. Marcus watched it like ages ago, and he kind of got some of the lines put on his msn nickname display. It went something like this:"My father said: 'Why look so serious?' 'Let me carve a smile on that face'." It was a line supposedly said by the Joker's father. But since I had not caught the show, evidently I knew nothing about what was going on and I even thought "My father" referred to Marcus' father (Mr. Foo- a.k.a. the Front Desk Manager) and it was kind of scary that a man like Marcus' father would say such things to Marcus. Hmm, silly me :x

Now I guess I understand why the rich and the famous place so much emphasis on their automobiles. The lamboghini was simply fabulous. Amidst it simplicity, an aura of sleek sophistication envelops the whole scene. To have a secret identity can be a huge responsibility you have to heave over your shoulders. The difference between a dark knight and a normal citizen entrusted with a responsibility, is that the dark knight has to constantly look over his shoulders, beyond his reponsibilities and cast an invisibility coat upon that duty he willingly burdens himself with.

Great movie. But a little too long for me. I could not have lasted long enough. I was too tired for the day. Nice synthesis and progression of the plot. Humor was used with great emphasis of the character's role. Like the one of Bruce's butler," I hate to say this." "But I told you so."

Exhausted.

2008-07-22T00:08:00.004+08:00

WOOHOO!!

Chemistry I U.T. 4 is officially O.V.E.R.. :] But, it is not all over yet :[ 3 U.T.s in a week? We will be having 2 more upcoming U.T.s scheduled on Thursday and Friday. As for the week after, Anatomy and Physiology will be held on Friday :c 加油, people! The last lap! Come on man!

2008-07-20T11:51:00.007+08:00

http://oroborus.deviantart.com/art/Chemistry-18204794

How do you name organic compounds?!

Argh! Chemistry sucks at times. That is the understatement of the year. Redox too, another big problem. How do you even balance an equation? Urgh. ARGH!!

Kudos to whoever created this image :]

Chemistry can turn you from a normal jane to a nutty goner.

*To Jian Hui, sorry for waking you up :x

2008-07-19T10:20:00.004+08:00

Wakey wakey! Hoho! Rise and shine man!

Finally, the long awaited Saturday. You know? I think I am beginning to belong somewhere. There seems to be a place where I belonged. Though it might seem a little out of place, but yea, I think I do fit in. :]

I got to complete one of the difficult problem of which I thought I could not have done. I had to pinch the 2 pockets before elevating myself. I was stuck there for a fairly long period of time. I tried for like more than 3 times before I could finally get it right. Yeah man! The feeling was AWESOME!

Got to know another friend the day before. Jerald was T.K.'s classmate. It turned out that Jerald was in actual fact the one who dragged him into all these. Haha! I am glad he did, if not for him, I would not have met T.K. and the others.

There's Matthew the mixed blood, with the malay-chinese heritage. Currently dating a Malay girl. He is a very nice and easy going guy. Easy to talk to.

Jason who keeps bugging the hell out of me at times. But overall he is alright. He kept giving me tips on how to "maximize" training, getting the most out of it. But, I failed. Terribly. No strength to support my body weight. Got. To. Stay. Strong!

Penguin too. A little big in size, cute too. :D

And XXX thanks for being there, haha, you are also most definitely one of reasons why I go for these sessions. If not, where is the fun in solving problems on my own?

Yep, it is nearing the end of the semester. I really am going to miss a lot of things. I am definitely going to miss my buddy- Miss Tempura (a.k.a. Zebra/ Jebra). Yes, she is my Korean coach too. Hehe, somemore free of charge leh! She also is the girl who solves all the difficult problems with me everyday. If not for her, I guess I would have been even more stressed out over the stupid problem triggers. It is great having someone alongside you, talking about randoms stuffs under the sun, sprouting rubbish and just having to spew out all the limited little Korean phrases that I know of. Sharing the sinful burdens with me :D "NO! This one is sinful! What about sandwich? Hmm. Alright, I guess? What about having a bowl of handmade noodle? Carbohydrates!" Lols, though I guess I am not all that serious, as in one who can really strictly adhere to any diet plans, but I try my best to cut down on "sinful stuffs", so as to "enhance" my "lousy performance".

The day before yesterday, I managed to chalk that Tall Bastard's hair. Yesh! Trying to mess around with my face? Putting chalk foundation on my face? Haha, it was indeed so hard to reach the Tall Bastard's face, with him towering over me and performing his defensive moves against the "chalk applicator" in my hands. In the end, he got away. But not without me chalking against his fringe. Ahahaha! :x

Anyway, I am going to miss that Uncle, pestering me in class. Always calling me Auntie, Auntie. Recently, he has been going around calling me "芒果阿姨". Why? For the sole reason that I wore a MANGO shirt with "MANGO" imprinted on the front. He even went to Qi Bin telling him how I am a disgrace to Chinese, with the Korean phrases I speak of. Guess what else the Rock said? "回家做泡菜吧!" WHAT?! -_-'' Thanks ar!

Jobelle and Zi Ning too. The ones with never-ending "LOLLIPOP" entertainment channels. The 开心果of the class. It seems like Zi Ning always is a little sunshine who has more than enough "glucose" to last her throughout the day no matter how tiring it seems. She just laughs her troubles away.

哈哈。The list of people is never-ending. I will continue again sometime soon. 敬请等待！

2008-07-13T20:02:00.003+08:00

They all just came back from K.L. after seeing my grandmother. She fell down on Thursday and had to undergo an operation as she broke her bone. But now, having undergone the surgery, she is alright. Finally, after god knows for how long, I broached the subject. They did not take it quite well initially. Negative feedbacks came from them both. It was over dinner time, that I decided was the best time to "break the silence". Something I never expected as one of the reason why my father opposed, took me by surprise. I was taken aback when he said that it was more of a guy's sport, not where a girl is supposed to be. He told me that I would be more "muscular" and then he kept emphasizing on the kind of figure I would have. Woa. Never did I expect that kind of answer from him. I never thought that he would think of it this way. Instead, the kind of response I envisioned would be that by commiting, I would be neglecting my studies and he would then strongly disapprove of me taking it up, harping on that reason.

But later, we talked more and yep, I guess in the end, I kind of got that subtle nod from them, though not a full support. It feels better now that the air is cleared. :]

*Saranghae!

2008-07-13T13:04:00.011+08:00

Lots of things happened this week. It is kind of weighing me down. I am so exhausted. Not sure how long can I keep this facade on. I am officially sick and tired of juggling so many things. Everything seems to be tiring me out so easily. I should not have had to worry about useless nitty gritty stuffs, but nonetheless, it chalked up quite a bit of my mind.

Maybe the C-word is a taboo for me right now. I am even beginning to wonder if I am in fact the one who has some issues with commitment. Can I commit? Will I commit? Is it in my capability to commit? Or will I just give up midway and regret that I was not any stronger? With ADPP coming up my way, I seriously doubt that I would have the strength, energy, commitment and the will to discipline myself. (xxx, I am a weee bit afraid to commit :x Sway and convince me please.., haha) Using another different angle, looking at it, I am after all a year 2 student, what is anything worth without a try, huh? Nothing. So, I am going to try and commit, that is if I even get the approval of my parents. Which is another one of my woes.

Well, I guess I passed my "Level One" for now. Congratulations! The honor goes to xxx and me (a.k.a. the dreadful bathroom opera singer!) WOOHOO!
It was kind of easy to pass, though :x Hmm, about passing "Level Two"? I think I need much much more time, maybe not even enough in this lifetime to qualify for a "Level Two". My time could even run out before I even have the chance to try my hands on it.

Hope it is alright for me to say it now. To let it all out. Not sure if the time is right, I have a feeling this is the time. Dragging matters further will only increase my burden. It is getting way heavy for me to heave it over my shoulders. It is bruising. Salonpas? Anyone?

偶尔会想起你。想起吃火锅的那晚。你最近还好吗？

2008-07-11T17:25:00.001+08:00

Shagged.

UT? Hmm. Stupid me, really a fool. :x They asked me to agree or disagree, and guess what I did? Instead of stating my stand, I simply jumped into explaining the reasons and description of Vitamin D. O, what a smart move, babe! Gosh..On to my workout!! :]

2008-07-05T22:05:00.004+08:00

是这样吗？
我要的，到底是什么？
有的时候，想做个选择，并非易如反掌。
这也不行，那也不行。
如果每件事都那么的容易解决，那我也不需要处处顾虑到别人的感受。
只要自己开心就好。什么都不需要去管。
这样行得通吗？
哈，才怪呢！

毕竟只有在更长的时间，才能让我确定我要的到底是什么。

2008-07-04T23:52:00.007+08:00

I got this off Hui Ping's friend's blog. Here goes. With your month of birthday, comes the 'you':

September:

Suave and compromising.
Careful, cautious and organized (I'm messy! Organization could be my speciality, that is when I am compelled to :x).
Likes to point out people's mistakes (My sis' in particular).
Likes to criticize (Her piano skills..).
Stubborn (Yep!).
Quiet but able to talk well.
Calm and cool.
Kind and sympathetic.
Concerned and detailed.
Loyal but not always honest.
Does work well.
Very confident.
Sensitive (Rather sensitve haha! Wait! What's that word I hear? "SHORT!?" Get back here, you!).
Good memory (Nah! Difficulty even in memorizing routes.).
Clever and knowledgeable.
Loves to look for information.
Must control oneself when criticizing (Can be sarcastic when I am pushed to the limit..).
Able to motivate oneself.
Understanding.
Fun to be around.
Secretive.
Loves leisure and traveling.
Hardly shows emotions (True, true!).
Tends to bottle up feelings (So very true!).
Very choosy, especially in relationships.
Systematic.

2008-07-04T23:14:00.003+08:00

Today was not too bad, except the training part, when we got "self-proclaimed P.T.I.s" and it was tough. -_-'' No strength man! It was so difficult! There was one part when I was "up" against Penguin, haha, I had an unfair physical advantage against him I guess, that was why I fared a wee bit better :x

We got split into 3 groups, rotating around 3 stations. And boy was I lucky to have ~xxx~censored (haha!), Linette, T.K., Fizah, Liana and Rina with me. I got to know new people from that group today. One of them was Matthew, he was really vocal throughout. Douglas too, and the others' names were still lost somewhere at the back of my mind. Names don't match faces, if you should know how I go about associating people with their names. A total failure at that, I assure you!

I really had fun. On the way back the 4 of us walked home together and T.K., haha, that guy has a serious case of random singing man and a bit of the "don't-know-song-a-nitis"~! I thought I was the ultimate random singer, it turned out, T.K. has outdone me in this aspect. Well done!Haha! Matthew was promoting T.K. as the next idol, encouraging make-believe audiences to vote for T.K. through the making of phone calls to the number xxxx-xxx-xxx1. T.K. in the M.R.T., was even more entertaining. We talked and yea, the kind of actions that accompanied his talks? Hilarious. He mimicked how some of his classmates presented during lesson times and it was freaking funny the way he copied their accent and habits.

Woo! Looking forward to this Sunday evening :] I will be attenting ACJC's choir concert at the Esplanade. Hmm, what should I wear? WooHOo! I will most probably be sitting in the same row as Darryl's parents, with Yi Jie and Timothy too... 加油! Darryl! Sing your best!

2008-07-01T21:03:00.002+08:00

the attack of the OREO MUDPIE GHOST!! Watch out for Esther (aka. ster-ster) the mon-ster!

2008-06-30T22:45:00.005+08:00

2 problems were set for us today. I stuck to doing the latter one. Tried many a times, and yea, not surprisingly, got some abrasions too. Ouch!

Haha, we played the game of "Shark Attack". The last one standing, or rather, the last one clinging on was the "survivor". Hehe! T.K. gave up earlier than me :] The reason being? I sang some crappy song to agitate him, making him lose his concentration. This will be my secret weapon from now on- singing irritating songs to distract T.K.!

Must! Develop! Tactics! haha!

One thing I realized about myself? I do not process my brains for the completion of problems. I just simply, do it. No tactics, no strategy, zilch. Tsk, tsk, tsk! Maybe some other time? Yea. Some other time. Not now. Too lazy to utilize brain power.

Oh, and another thing? Chemistry U.T. today was a total flop. The understatement of the year- stoichiometry and I, we do not click. Need any more substantial evidences? [*points hopeless at the U.T. Answer File which has been alternatively labelled "GONE CASE"] See what I mean? Calculations suck. They do. :x

2008-06-28T12:19:00.002+08:00

I just talked over the phone with ster-ster. I am not sure if I had given up on a great opportunity, but I guess, and I hope that if I am able to commit time and effort to all these, I pray I get stronger and will then be able to conquer routes of higher difficulty. For now, I guess it should go to either E-fa or Ann, not me. I have to get stronger and stop procrastinating. I think this is the last straw.

To Esther: Thanks! I was really a little worried there and panicky because it was close to 12pm already. Luckily you replied me or I would not have known what to do :x Thanks!

Hope that later in the evening, we would still be free, so we could go down and study in Macdonalds'.

2008-06-17T12:06:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Kimmy!

Imagine, me, living right in the heart of Bukit Panjang, yet knows nothing about its ongoings. Woa. A real living example of a blockhead. Period. Esther told me our Fajar Mac opens 24 hours a day. I was super shagged the day before. But I had to try squeeze a little something inside, so off we went after dinner back home to take and bath. We met at the traffic junction at around 9.40pm. The only complaint I had: there was not enough power points available in the outlet. The danger of me going there is the tendency of mine to indulge and eat those irresistible munchies. :x Esther studied for her Project Management U.T., while I sipped from my Iced Milo, just flipping through the pages. We stayed till 12am, the next day. Haha, it sounds like a much longer time this way :D

Fighting!!

2008-06-12T13:29:00.002+08:00

WooHoo!

Hope I get nice stuffs over at Batam! And have the most relaxing time possible there. I am secretly wishing that they would bring the mahjong set over there, so we could play :x If possible, get nice clothes too!! *Sigh, kor kor would be coming on Saturday, so Friday would be without him (BOR-ING!)

Monday is a great day to look forward to!! Not because I have had enough, and had gotten sick and tired of my holidays, but because it is a SPECIAL DAY(mind you, with only 2 weeks of holidays, who would get sick and tired so fast? -_-'')!!

WooHoo! So excited man!

2008-06-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

Life is more than what it encompasses itself in. I guess I just have to take a step back to realize that all I have been through, is mildly significant, compared to what you see once you have stepped out of it all.

Moph. Just stop. Think about the big picture.

2008-06-05T23:47:00.001+08:00

75 :]

YAMAMOTO!

2008-06-05T21:03:00.004+08:00

Episode 70!!

Hibari-san rocks! :x ARGH! [*faints]

Yamamoto pebbles too!! [haha!]

I-Pin loves Hibari-san!!

http://betwixtandbetween.us/hiba/images/hiba-sama.gif

http://images.minitokyo.net:8001/view/325767.jpg

Er, hmm, pardon me for getting a little carried away, but that's what hols is for anyway! To let loose of oneself!!

:] Hibari!!

2008-06-04T12:37:00.008+08:00

Yesterday was fun, though. Sentosa is really a great place. The ambience, the decor, the everything. Great for a fun place to just chill out with friends; great for lovey-dovey couples (given time, I would be there with my JJ :x). The flickering dimmed lightings against the backdrop of the beach was amazing, SO RO-MAN-TIC!!!

We played frisbee, dividing ourselves into 2 teams. Presenting the team of Estrogen (:x)- Isa, Debra, Jobelle and moi! The team of Testosterone (? Is it applicable to Aidil? Hmm, maybe high on both estrogen and testosterone. On second thoughts, higher on the estrogen side :x haha, jkjk!)- Afiq, Aidil and Jeek (aka. Sexy Boy) [WOOHOO!]

We went to VivoCity for dinner. Then we walked around. We went into this shop that is so "Zi Ning". The kind of products on display, were those kawaii Japanese cutsie plushies and accessories, playing around with the color pink as the main theme. That was the basic outlook of the store. It even sold clothes, if you want to play dress-up with your pets. There was even the "Poo Kit" for you to specially clean after your pet. W.O.A. The shop even has its market share stemmed in areas like this. O.

Then another highlight of the day was spent on the playground. We invaded the playground, but in the end it was quite the other way. Let me explain...

Our initial intention was to have fun, playing on the turnabouts and whatnots, alternating between each stations. Then, it slowly turned into slavery for some of us. Lols! We were faintly aquainted with the little kids there as "the new bigger kids on the blocks" (aka the new energy buster) They even called me an AUNTIE?! What!? Another irritating Heng Yi double in the making, that is for sure, haha! 'Auntie! Push us!' 'Faster! Faster!' -_-'' I am not a turbo spinner. My limitations are as fast as I can push you guys. I would gladly like to increase my turbo power, but that was all that I have got :x But it was fun to play with them, no less. :] So dizzy!

Aidil got the lucky card too! 'UNCLE, push us! Faster! Faster!' Lols, I am so relieved I am not the only one regarded as the one with the huge year gap. Aidil is considered my level haha!

Reborn: 33 :] I-Pin loves Hibari-san :D

2008-06-02T23:02:00.007+08:00

O.K.

I am a little speechless now. Come to think of it, there should not have been much to be expected, as always.

Anyway, today was alright, on the whole. I thought I would be going back alone, but in the end, Yi Jie went back there with me, though he initially planned to rush his report. Woohoo, thanks boy! So, I kind of finished the initial section of my PP (PP is so hard to do! It makes me fall into a deep mental hibernation. O, yes siree!). I am glad to declare this day "Procrastination Free!" Tada!

We walked at the back of my house, the part facing Beacon Primary and yea, as expected from the vocally active duo, we did some duets and sang a little as we headed towards his house to get his lappy (no one was walking along that stretch, so we sang in our BHB ways, ok, you can imagine how bad now :x haha!). The rest of the day was peppered with us singing songs. He got so random at one point of a time that he even sung our national day song- Count On Me Singapore. W.O.A. haha. K-Box, people! K-box!

I am so bored at home. My mom and sister are not in Singapore. At home, alone. What a bore. First day, YES! And I. Have. Survived! "Congrats!" But still many more to go. Argh.

2008-06-01T23:43:00.009+08:00

Giddyup! It's 18 going on 19! :]

Things to accomplish tomorrow:

Lift some light weights
Be that couch potato :x
Get a little headstart on my PP (*groan, currently meeting with some internal resistance within thyself. NO! I want to procrastinate!)
Catch some "Reborn" episodes
Go jogging

Might just complete the second point and sleep through the whole day. Woa. Life's cool.

2008-06-01T17:11:00.011+08:00

I am watching Hitman Reborn now. Gosh, why can't the buffering speed be any faster? It is so freaking funny the way Reborn does things his own way and springs surprises at those guys and expects Tsuna to escape from all those. Damn funny I tell you! He ties Tsuna to a rock from a freezing waterfall and expects him to withstand the low temperature and in addition to that, also move to avoid the plastic ducks falling over his head [How, may I ask is that possible when Tsuna's tied to the rock? -_-'']. What is more, Reborn tells him to look up and there Tsuna sees a super duper big duck plushie about to descend upon Tsuna's crown. Go check it out. Isa, Jobelle and I , we are hooked onto this anime. And it isn't as if I am an anime fanatic, watching every single anime, but this one has grown onto me. :] I will hit 30 episodes this hols, and catch up with ISA!! [Muahaha!]

2008-06-01T13:47:00.010+08:00

Got woken up in the late morn' when Yi Jie called. The Ping Pong song greeted my slumber. I subconsciously answered him in the perkiest tone available on my lazy list (which still is quite incoherent, mumbling through it all) that moment. (hurlo?... Hmm..m?) I guess it sounded a little weird :x He asked me along to go for the little "Go-Kart Carnival" so yea, an hour or so saw us strolling across to the site of the event. It was not as grand, a little disappointing. The field was soaked in cakes of mud, and we had to wade slowly across, while looking at the booths. I saw some kids playing those mini games and feeling intrigued, I went inside to check them out. It turned out to be those cute lil' PinBall :x

We thought of watching Wing Kiong perform Taekwondo alongside his master, but it was already over and he was back at home relaxing -_-'' One step too late... There was a makeshift rockwall there too and it was FREE OF CHARGE! Yi Jie offered to be the "cheerleader" (lols, no thanks! :]) while I climbed the wall, but nah, did not think of trying my hands on it, what with the muddy field and all.

We then had lunch together. He called Han Xiang and Qi Bin along. Han Xiang was like "THE Absolute Caffein Addict". Coffee and Singapore's signature toffee candy is a basic neccessity to keep him accompanied through his mugging phase.

We each got a Paddle Pop Rainbow before we went home. It was freaking hot in the afternoon.. whew.

Sentosa Outing with W54K :]
Date: 3rd June
Venue (meeting point): Harbourfront M.R.T. Control Station
Time: 12pm

P.s.: Does anyone have poncho/ mat/ anything to place on the ground?
Volleyball? Or some ball games? Or Twister?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twister_(game)

Better yet, lug a table and a Mahjong set over and set up a session amid the beach hunk and babes :] (lols!) It sure will turn heads (esp. those of the hunky hunks) Stop it, Zebra, I can see you salivating all over from here.. Haha, jkjk! Later you ask me to (qoute myself) "go toilet settle"!

http://killerfeeling.deviantart.com/art/mahjong-74428408

Suncreen lotion / Tanning oil?
Just p.m. me or Jobelle? Thanks! If you guys bringing anything else, just p.m. and bring ok?

WOOHOO! Finally, an outing!

2008-05-31T11:39:00.012+08:00

The day before was a rainy day, and so is today, as evident from the relentless rain beating outside my window. The pitter-pattery sound. But guess what? The day before, Rae Zhou announced her departure from Singapore to immigrate to the US, somewhere along the west coast area. W.O.A.. (*Close your gaping mouth) It was a little sad, though we never really started out on the right foot. She was nice, except that we had spent approximately 70% of our lesson time in an attempt to decipher her lessons. Which was good, AND bad in ways that you could imagine. GOOD- Aids us in facing future expats like that in the future, so we are able to "overcome" our language barrier [and maybe get promotion! Why? The boss is unable to understand what they are speaking and you, on the other hand is one well versed and trained in your poly days, so much so that it becomes second nature and the boss, being impressed and (*a little ashamed of his incapability) decides to give you a raise or anything like that :x] , (BAD) at the expense of our grades now [lols, jkjk!] But it was not too bad, I actually got to learn some stuffs from her lessons. Knowing that Chemistry is my worst subject by far, to be able to even understand her lesson is no mean feat for me :x BECAUSE I can say that I HATED Chemistry and it is my worst nightmare come true when I had to take this module. -_-'' Chemistry Sucks!

Nonetheless, I will miss her trying to explain. And I'm sorry that I cannot really keep pace with you and when you had explained finished, I would be the only one left with that blank look on my face and always asking you to repeat yourself so many a time until I got to understand what you were attempting to convey across to me. Sorry, Rae Zhou! :x

http://oroborus.deviantart.com/art/Chemistry-18204794

*P.s.: No offence intended, seri-ously. Just found it on DeviantArt and thought of sharing it here with you guys... Just added for fun. :] Nice synthesis of the periodic table put together using the simplest of all elements, credits to whoever who did it :x

After I got the Aviva tickets from Xiu Ling, I headed home last night. I called Yi Jie up to see if he was free to meet me up. It turned out he was free. So as I headed home, I saw Kiat Lee (a primary school classmate, not sure which class exactly, waved and yea, retreated back to the world of my music and I) on the L.R.T.. When I reached my station, I walked along the pathway until I met Yi Jie. I thought it was just the handing over of the ticket and then home and away for me, but we ended up chatting for quite some time. I wanted to ask him out to watch some competition with me today, but his exams were coming, so yea, some other time, I guess. He recently got hooked on violin. And boy I tell you, I admire the way he commits himself once he finds his target. Like the way he played the sport of badminton so good without having undergone any training, the way he played the guitar and what nots. This time, it is the violin, so I guess he will be committing quite a lot of hours to it. C is the word for it man! C.O.M.M.I.T.M.E.N.T.

So we hung around at our neighborhood, chatting till close to 11pm before we went back. And as we went back, he met his ex. (from way back into our primary 6 days). He went "steady" with her for 3 days and found she was freaky so, he acted like a jerk to throw her off his path. Lols! You should have seen his expression when realisation hit him -the girl in blue behind us was actually that girl from way back into our primary school days. His expression was priceless. Comical. I think that girl kind of recognized him too, lols~. So this whole week he will be mugging, and I guess we might go out to libraries and what nots (so I can do my PP :x How to DO!? Where to start!?) He asked me to go try out that violin, so I might go up to try my hands on his violin, and judging from my experience (N.I.L.), I might just kill his whole block from the squeaking sounds emitting from my awesome violin skills (thank you, thank you!!) Then if time permits, we might go on a shopping spree (for him)/ or window shopping (for me, cash-strapped) to get the clothes he need and the clothes I desire but can't get my hands on :x And maybe, just maybe, conduct some market research for my PP while shopping :]

2008-05-28T01:07:00.005+08:00

WOOHOO!

UT 2 of Molecular Cell Biology is OVER!

The last lap, come on people!

Go, Jian Hui!

Go, Yati!

Go, Debra!

Go, Afiq!

Go, Jun Hui!

Go, Isa!

Go, Jobelle!

Go, Karen!

Go, Uncle!

Go, Aidil! Don't slack anymore! Lols!

Go, Zi Ning!

2008-05-25T14:46:00.008+08:00

I received a little shocking news from my ex-schoolmate. Anyway, I will still try my very best to contribute and elevate the situation now, as would the others, though I am not as sure how much of an impact it would be on the current situation, but at least being part of the alumni, being part of our heritage, that is the very least we could all do for it.

Cross my fingers and hope this is the best ** that I will be writing so far, as a tribute. Through this, I am dedicating my ** as a tribute to give thanks and possibly the strength to help tide over this crisis. The best piece of writing that I would present to you (pardon my low command of language as compared to the others from the triple sciences class [e.g. 4T1 and 4T2]).

So now, I have to think of a topic to write about. Argh, stress... :x How should I go about writing when I haven't even decided upon a topic?

DATELINE: 31 May 2008

Guys, what you see here, stays here. Nothing leaks out alright? Just read and forget about it. We don't want things circulating around.

2008-05-19T10:52:00.002+08:00

I recall that once, my best friend, kimmy told me time and again," You deserve better." Boy, was I glad I heeded your advice. Now I guess it is time we tide over your crisis together. The three of us- Esther, you and I. You are confused, just as I was, or rather, I am. But to hell with my own problems. Yours has dragged long enough. I am not sure. It is all so complicated. I kind of understand how you feel, after all our situations are all too similar (except mine was never there). We too feel sick and tired already. Just know that we are always there for you. Whenever you want to "emo", don't emo. Call me along, we emo together :x Vivo? Or even Esplanade?

With a Subway loaf and napkins on the other hand, sitting by the metal ledge, we just, talk. Emo, stare into blank space, sigh together and talk about life. I kind of wanted to do that for a long time now. With Esther too, if and when she has a day off from work.

Just stop thinking about Fish and Co., JJ, and all the others that bothered you. When is your day off? :x

2008-05-18T23:05:00.002+08:00

I think I blew it. Big time. My intuition tells me so. Ever since that day, I think I busted it. I guess I can blame no one. Oh well. I am still taking it one step at a time.

2008-05-18T00:44:00.004+08:00

Fad set routes for us to ascend, Jeremy too. Jeremy even asked the girls to dyno -_-'' How, may I ask, is that possible. Ok, maybe not for me :x Try harder next time, girl! Dynoing is definitely next on my to-do list. Oh and by the way, campusing is crazy. Andy did it. Made it seemed all-so-easy. Ouch.

2008-05-17T23:27:00.004+08:00

Note: this is just a random entry, no cause for worry. As of yet. I guess it is alright not to know the truth, because theoretically, I know of the consequence. The worst imaginable result is dxxxh. Some people fall under the category of "ignorance is a bliss", even when they know of the symptoms that point evidently to an eminent disaster, they still try to brush the topic away as if it were just a bug buzzing round their comfort zone. They fear. To know the truth. They fear its consequence. They don't want to hear it from the xxxxxx, much less confirm their fears. I guess it cannot be blamed upon them, because I too feel this way. Reading too much into "Hypochondriac's Manual" could have gotten in the way somehow or rather. Not sure if it is just a phase that I would grow out of, or is it a cause for worry.

Theoretically, the concept of dxxxx seems a natural way of evolution. Without the elimination of the weaker ones, how then can the stronger ones dominate? This is Mother Nature's way of ruling the Earth. But thinking deeper, however, it seems cruel. Especially when the elimination card lands on your hands. You start thinking more into it. What then does this period of time mean to you? Is that all that you can offer to yourself? Is this the best that you can do? You start pondering, what in this lifetime have you missed out? That game you never tried because someone stopped you? What haven't you done? What haven't you fulfilled? Do you even have a dream? A life? Of which you can live to your fullest?

You try your hands on things you thought you would give a shot at. Something you knew you could succeed, but let your low self-esteem get the better of you in your younger days. What next? I am not sure. Just bidding your time? Trying your very best to find that sole piece of satisfaction, that sacred sense of achievement you could not seem to find elsewhere?

Is what I am doing right now the right thing? Should I commit myself to the new entity of my life? Or just give it up and go on living that mundane chore? As for that part of my life, I try to harbour no hopes. It seems like it is going head on for that. And it would spell another major trouble for me (another year or two, perhaps).