YEAH! Sucky chemistry UT 1 is officially- OVER! [*Blaring music in the background]


I dropped by R.P. this morning...
Someone treated me to papaya juice and it messed up my bowels. I ended up visiting the loo many times. To xx thanks a lot :x haha. Next time round, I will be even more careful. Should have choosen watermelon juice instead of papaya. Too bad they ran out of carrots, if not you would have to pay more, muahaha! :x


WooHoo! I went shopping with Deborah at Far East. It's a pity Jobelle could not make it. (Next time round, we all go out again!) I have gotten a dress and a boyfriend shirt that I liked a lot. It is so difficult to find a dress that has its sleeves sewn on. Majority of those sold in the market are those sleeveless ones. The dress was pretty nice, with small prints printed against a pink background. The boyfriend shirt had vertical stripes on it. :D


Should I give a shot at it? Still thinking. Should I? Not sure if I am good enough to qualify. Someone accompany me along? Pretty please? :x

Slacked a lot this weekend. Later in the afternoon, we are going to catch the "Forbidden Kingdom" at Lot 1.





再接再厉！

I need a re-vamp. A makeover. Change the look of my bedroom or something. A change in my life, clear those mess out of my life.

* I want a boyfriend shirt :x
Coupled with a brown vintage belt [Oh no! Sinful acts of monetary splurging! ]
and this, and that, and those and that and that!
Ah, how I wish I was one of those rich kids like Lester, then I could declare a wardrobe breakdown every few months :x

I want to go on a shopping spree! But time, time! Where can I find the time to go down to shop around!?



Those words that had a significant effect on me, are slowly dwindling down to one of insignificance. Do you see what I see? If that is the way we are heading towards, then I welcome it with both arms extended. If distance is all that it takes, then you guys have got it. No more. No less.

Yawn.

So tired right now.

Omg, 直树rocks! He even kept those stuffs that 湘琴made for him, ever so carefully. 直树never ceases to surprise me. :x

"江同学，你好。我是 F 班的袁湘琴。我想... ..."

Internal conflict is the understatement of the year. Trust me, internal conflict sucks. I have been through it, and I barely survived. Now, we have another one placed right in front of me. I am so stressed out and freaking pissed off with what is happening right now. I am not sure who went to complain and caused the uproar, but I think I have a faint idea who it is. I am so ****ing pissed when I saw her turn around and start acting like nothing happened, and all that we had discussed was all gone in thin air when she went over to "enhance" her popularity ratings. Fine! ok?

Though I did not really like XL's attitude when it comes to training, I still could not bear it when she told me she was quitting, I felt lost. Encouragements and motivation ain't really the stuffs she do best. Her way of expression isn't exactly the best. Trashed out alot, but I felt it all equate to nothing.

Walking home alone, I felt a sense of insecurity. Whenever I felt like I needed someone to talk to, the one I would think of randomly would automatically be the one I'd never muster enough courage to call. But right now, surprisingly, I could not even care less. I don't even bother about it anymore. Maybe this is the "breaking free" stage. Esther would have been working and Hui Ping would have been busy doing school work. So, I just walked to the interchange, thinking, pondering, sulking.

I hate politics.

I really hate politics.



I just want to take a breather. Show me the way. Talk to me.

Labels: tell me how am I supposed to breathe with no air?

Go, Sue Yee! Go, girl! Yeah, yeah! A little stressed out due to chemistry. Ok, I admit, not a bit, but quite stressed out. I'm so blur. People have been explaining so much to me, yet I still cannot grasp the concept. But, go girl! Sue Yee! You can make it! Marcus told me to have more confidence in thyself, so all the way, girl!

Show Marcus who's the man, er, woops, the girl, I mean. :x

Marcus' quite capable, alright. He has got a P.T.I. position which was meant for a year 3 student. So, I'm planning to treat him to lunch next time round. But he still owes me an "apology meal" :x


Well the turn-out for Badminton wasn't too bad, or rather, it was too over-whelming. So much so that we had to change the leisure's timeslot to Friday and Saturday instead of the usual Tuesday and Thursday one. Thursday saw lots of people pouring into the Badminton Hall, while some were turned away when they saw the courts all filled. This coming Tuesday is the try-out and my guess would be that it is going to be super-packed. I don't think I would be able to elevate the "crowd-control situation" by going to play on-court this Tuesday.

Labels: kidnap my heart.

Today, we studied about microbes. In the end, the compilation of the presentation was done by me, and I'm not so sure I did a great job in compiling and making sure the ideas flowed through. :x Sorry guys if I screwed up! But Deborah said the powerpoint was good, hmm. When Heng Yi's team went up first, I was still struggling to put everyone's information together. In the end, I guess it went on quite alright.

Heng Yi was damn cute today, in his action, mind you (don't "scally" me again, Jobelle!) He, being the barefooted guy, literally walked out of the classroom with his bag and all packed, almost at the door, before he realized, hey, he was walking barefooted out of the door.

Gosh, I saw him walking back to his place to retrieve his sandals and I could not stand it as I burst out laughing. Jobelle, Deborah and the others turned around and looked at me. And Heng Yi, realizing that I knew about his foolish blunder, laughed along with me too. It was just so comical, when the others too, realized what happened. Everyone started laughing too.

Oh my goodness!

Heng Yi! So comical! The scene is like stuck in my head.

Ooi! Beng ar! Walk properly ar! Watch where your sandals are! Lols!


*P.s., Aidil saw a pontianak the day before. Woo, the pungent frangipani smell.

Expected.

算了。

别再瞒我了。

CheMystery.

Heard Jing has a girlfriend already, woohoo!

Hehe! Finally, Congrats!!

That is, if what I heard so far is correct :x

As for me, I'm really getting nervous!

Beginning to regret my decisions made initially; maybe I should not have done it :x

I guess tomorrow might turn out to be a huge disappointment for me.

Dumb blockhead!? The hint is so obvious!

If your friends are coming to R.P. too, then why don't you just go along and come to my booth and we'd leave together!?

Oh my god, faint!

Hmm, should I bring my precious racket or the other one to the fair?

Laboratory coats got sold out again!


Gosh! What is with them?


Is "XS" so difficult to manufacture??!!


Went to BookLink the day before, in the evening and guess what?


It took only 1 day, for everything to be sold out. -_-''


And the prices of laboratory coats are getting more and more absurd.


It used to be like... $19+?


Now, inflation has got it to a price of $24? Woa.

Haha, checked out Isa's blog and guess what?

The topic of the day: Her.

I'm trying hard to understand what she's explaining,.. but to no avail.

Chemistry is the bane of my life. Period.

What with "tetrahe-tua (tetrahedron)", "loong bong (lone bond)", I'm having a little trouble down here.

The retro-retro stylo milo bespectacled look.

The model-teacher-look adopted.

Hm, a new makeover could give her a whole new fresh look.

:x

Difficult subject, difficult lesson of language barrier, but it is no doubt that she has the qualifications to back up her knowledge. (P.H.D.!! USA!!)

She is trying to impart what she knows of the subject to us, but blame it on the language barrier, it is the division of our learning.

Without it, we could learn better.

:x


The day after tomorrow, is the start of the 3 day marathon- S.L.A. Fiesta.

Have to go back and help Xiu Ling out with the booth, then if time permits, go out and have dinner with Marcus.

Well, here goes nothing, baby!

So disappointed with some.

But isn't that what you'd expect?

Well, that is what it is.

I fell in love with "L"!

Oh my goodness, L rocks!

My Happiest Day Ever (shut cliche-ity up.)

11 April, 2008.

I guess it is worth the wait.

So long, it has been. An unexpected surprise.

Caught me so. off. guard.

I couldn't believe what my eyes saw.

So long, just for one sentence.

One pathetic sentence.

The title of the world's stupidest girl could very well go to me.

Thanks alot.

Is this what it all took to get what I had longed for?

If everything goes along this rate, I would only get another one in the near yet distant year ahead.

Like a fool, I grinned.

As if I had hit a jackpot.

My presentation went well. because of you.

What more could I ask for? Nothing more. Really.

But for a chance to C.U.A. You make my day.

*thanks! XX even though you needn't have bothered about my laboratory coat, you still went through the trouble to help me find out!

Hehe, I guess I can now really say that I have made some new friends.

Gweneal and Deborah.

Great people. Aidil too!

Haha, Deborah and Jobelle said their first impression of me was of one whose favorite hangout is the beach, small and bubbly :x

Aidil said I was like a wakeboarder. -_-'' cool, but I don't match up to the wakeboarders' cool factor.

And guess what?

Jobelle went searching around the database of those on our level and saw a guy she liked.

Hear me out:

1. She checked out his name, copied his picture
2. Pasted it in her computer
3. Memorised his class (directly opposite ours)

She is damn cute, I tell you.

We gossiped too. Alot about "XXXXXXXXXX". hehe!

Starting to like this class :]

Oh my goodness, I freaking love this day! Thank god, thank everyone, thank you!

Don't mind me, but for this day, I really am over-excited!!

Is this what we are?

Bonded against the odds?

That wasn't what it was all about, was it?

A team?



Lots if things happened today.

Module today was not bad.

Skipped lunch yet again. Damn hungry.

Felt faint, but yeah, whatever.

The hardwork was worth it, our presentation wasn't too bad.

I asked my first question today :x

A little difficult :x

I'm drained.

Pia chem arh!

Chiong arh!
为了我，为了你。

Now I know what subject will I definitely fail in.

And it is definitely not chemistry.

I will personally make sure it doesn't become a failure like moph.


Need to find an alternative way to breathe better.

Can't breathe.

Brain's now wired to constantly keep it on a "replay" mode.

Do I even know if I am dead or alive?

Just a zombie in a mess. That's what it seems to me.

You are flying, while I am sinking in deep shit.

Studying is getting way tough. Way way tough.

Can't breathe. I hate that feeling when I know nothing.

I can't answer questions; I blank out; I am inefficient.

I need strength, which is nowhere to be found. Ha.

The pathetic you.

Chemistry did not go so smoothly today.

It was the worst.

Guess I am getting a C or even a D for my daily grade :c

Bad. This is bad.

It's hard.

It's all up to me. Tough competition. So many obstacles.

Tsk, tsk. Go girl!

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What happened so many years ago when I went to Sentosa happened again today.

Superficial is my answer.

BoLang didn't even recognize me when I walked past.

That was what gave it all away. Haha.

Busted. But 加油 for your year 1 anyway.

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Even more sadded. What is wrong? Why can't I get what I want just this once?

Is it me or is it still me?

Is this what god is doing to me?

A form of motivation to study harder? Or a form of insult? Sarcasm?

I wonder.

Bless me.

Really freaking hungry at this point of a time. -_-''

Barely a few hours before, I was downing a set meal that cost me $18.70.

A SET meal. With a heavy main course of dory fish and chicken and a little helping of spaghetti.

Side dishes comprising of a yummy bowl of soup of the day- chicken plus a free flow of bread and butter.

If you haven't guessed already, I went on a girls' outing with my W35E-ians to The Cafe Cartel for dinner, at the Marina Square outlet.



A little recap of what happened a few days before...

1. Saw 2 men fighting. One was welding a stick, hitting the other with it. The "victim" was bleeding rather badly. They created a big commotion outside my sister's school. First time I saw something like that. Maybe this is the result of what Esther, Hui Ping and I call the "BP Protected Environment".


I am not sure of myself anymore.

I'm leaning more and more towards the past.

I'm getting sick.

I'm in a "musically-deprived" state of mind.

I miss choir.

I miss being among those very voices that blend into the piece music.

I miss hearing Mr. Yong's voice.

I miss Alex.

I miss Moritza.

I miss Olivia.

I miss Natalie.

Surprisingly, I miss that know-it-all old hag who keeps critising our costumes, makeup and what nots.

I miss all those songs.

Shinji-ru, Joshua, The Prince of Egypt, The Sparrow...

I'm CHOIR-sick. :c

So sick.

I yearn to hear those voices again. I feel so lonely, so empty.

So deprived.

There's an ACJC Choir concert in July, hope Yi Jie and Timothy can make it.

Anyway, I'll be going back to Malaysia, Terengganu to pray to my gong gong.

Freaking long journey. 8 hours +++.

It would not come as a surprise if it reaches 11 hours.

Let me do the calculations for you.

Because of XXX's Prison Break, Causeway jam: 1hour. At the most 2. If it hits 3 hours, I'll be damn pissed the whole journey, I tell you. I will pull a long face. Thanks to someone.

My uncle being a renowned slow coach: 1-2 hours.
我真得快疯掉了。
Dinner: 1 hour or less.
到那里去，我满脑子都是他。拜托！
It's a long, long journey.
谁来救救我啊?